This was to be my year of trust. To understand it and live it, deeper. I won't lie when I say that 2016 was intense, difficult, even, All this, and at the same time, beautiful and rich with
much goodness and growth.
I have been stretched and I have trusted in ways I didn't anticipate or even think was possible. And looking back at all these moments, this season of my life, all I'm left with, once again, is gratitude.
For miracles and mercies, opportunites and relationships that have nourished my soul with
hope and joy. With peace and love. And with arms wide open, I embrace new beginnings and fresh starts.
I am very drawn to the German artist Kathe Kollwitz (1867-1945). I thought I'd ease my way tonight into a new Christmas sketchbook with some graphite drawings inspired by a few of her self-portraits. Her words inspire me, too:
"To this day I do not know whether the power which has inspired my works is something related to religion or is indeed religion itself."
"I do not want to die... until I have faithfully made the most of my talent and activated the seed that was placed in me until the last small twig has grown."
" The job of an artist is to offer a sanctuary of beauty to an ugly world. I am in the world to change the world."
Christmas is over,
but the moments and the memories
are warm and happy and good.
Hoping yours was that way,
making:: We gathered who was home last night for our family gingerbread (graham cracker) house/village making. I must admit that this well-loved and much anticipated Christmas tradition overwhelms me somewhat with all the preparation involved (especially all those batches of royal icing needing to be mixed up.) Once I sit down to make my own, I'm pooped. But the kids always talk me into it, and it ends up fun and fulfilling.
hosting:: the college kids, along with Jane and Preston here this past week. It's nice to be able to enjoy them all this way.
outing:: After dropping J & P off at the airport this morning (they will spend the holidays in California with his folks), we enjoyed a fun day in the city with Eliza and Isaac. Pastries and peppermint tea at a cozy French bakery, hearing those angelic voices performing A Ceremony of Carols at the Cathedral of the Madeleine, and finally, a delicious lunch of Indian street food. All-in-all, a wonderful, memory-making day.
listening:: and immersed in the sounds of the holiday these days. Enjoyed every minute of the beautiful harp recital Eliza and I attended yesterday at the home of her friend Nikenzie.
reading:: sneaking in bits of time here and there for my books with The Widow's War (Gunning), The Birds' Christmas Carol (Wiggin), The Young family's The Storybook Home Journal (such a beautiful, inspiring bi-monthly publication.)
feeling:: On the downhill now with one last grocery shop tomorrow and Christmas Eve dinner to prepare on Saturday. Relief that the Christmas rush is through.
cherishing:: the time I have with my kids.
wishing:: each of you a joyful and peaceful holiday season. I sincerely thank you for your presence here and interest in my life. For the kind words you have gifted me this year. It all means so very much.
Love and Blessings to you, my friend.,
The holiday season has, in years past, brought much stress and overwhelm. A feeling that I'm riding a runaway train (and can't get off) of to-dos, perfection, and expectation. I'm focusing now on living with intention and gratitude. Trying to find joy in the simple things. Choosing to do those things that truly bring pleasure and peace. Like spending a quiet afternoon Friday baking and tucking cookies into cute little tins, making sweet surprise deliveries for our grown up, left-the-nest kids. Reminding them of home and their mother's abiding love. Or yesterday's decorating of a small evergreen tree that sits in my kitchen simply with gingerbread cutouts and orange slices. The smells and traditions of my mother's own kitchen, those magical Christmases of childhood past coming back to my memory now. And these children all gathered together last night sharing hugs, Thai dinner out, bowling, cake, and fun, celebrating with me these 46 years of life. Snuggling with Isaac later on the couch, my eyes tear-filled while reading aloud my beloved Christmas Day in the Morning. Making merry all these moments and more to come.
photo credit: Gary Crofts
Staying snug and cozy here at home today after yesterday's whopper of a snowstorm. A morning walk through this winter-wonderland, a hot bath, sipping a mug of my new holiday tea, books by the fire, curling up to watch the newest Anne of Green Gables, creamy potato soup by candlelight... perfect.
As tomorrow marks the first Sunday of Advent, I thought it would be nice to create a natural wreath from the beautiful materials I gathered this evening (in the dark!) from our own yard and a neighboring horse pasture. It's a lot easier to go out and buy an artificial wreath at the craft store, but there's absolutely no comparison with the natural beauty, the heavenly scent, and the satisfaction I felt in making something out of my own hands.
As we gather for supper each Sunday, we'll light a candle in anticipation and remembrance of Christ's birth, His gift of Light to the World. The fourth and last candle saved to burn on Christmas Day.
"If the only prayer you ever say in your entire life is thank you, it will be enough."
noticing:: blustery winds and a light dusting of snow last night and through this morning. Looks like the weather is finally taking a turn to cold and winter. We've been enjoying such a glorious, mild autumn.
smelling:: cozy, stay-at-home days like this always puts me into the baking mood. I mixed up a batch of Challah dough, and with the two extra portions, I decided to make "star bread"--one cinnamon and the other Nutella. Boy, my house smells divine.
listening:: Bach station on Pandora.
reading:: The Irresistable Introvert: (Chung).
viewing:: marathon 10 episodes of The Crown (Netflix) last weekend. Yes, hooked, loved, and guilty pleasure.
outing:: Jane and I sure enjoyed our night out on the town Saturday evening. Lovely candlelight dinner at Himalayan Kitchen and then off to Ballet West's beautiful production of Madam Butterfly. (Tickets so kindly gifted to me.) So grateful to spend this special time with her before she and Preston leave for Virginia in January.
thanking:: Something totally unexpected, joyful, and wondrous happened to me last week that I want to record and never want to forget. I was notified by email that an "admirer and fan" of my work anonymously paid (in September and me just finding out about it now) for an online portraiture painting course in my behalf. Tears. I had previously taken a few drawing courses from the same instructor and others-- focusing and working all year on drawing-- and have now desired and felt like it might be time to go on to the next level with oils, etc, but waiting patiently when the time was better financially. Also to note: that same week I was grateful to book two massage sessions that provided most if not all ofthe funds for my painting supplies!
I am so humbled, touched, and deeply grateful for angels who have so generously and so personally come to my aid over and over these last few years. All of these miracles and mercies witness that Heaven is indeed aware and does loves me. That my art practice is a gift that needs to continue to be nurtured.
Hi, I'm Emily!
I welcome and thank you for visiting. Through this blog, I invite you, friends or strangers, to come and abide with me as I open my heart and home to you in understanding, honesty, discovery, and reflection. It is my hope that you will join me in my quest for a simple, joyful, meaningful life.